Thursday, September 18, 2014

I'm Only Human

There is a Murphy's Law that says "If everything seems to be going well, you obviously don't know what the heck is going on." Knowing this, I've been waiting for some sort of catastrophe because things have been going really well lately.  Really well.  Unbelievably well. 

Scary well.

I knew it when I went to Stake Conference on Saturday night.  A member of our stake presidency gave an amazing talk . . . so amazing it touched my very soul and made feel a "hmmmm. . . . "

I knew it when I went to Regional Conference on Sunday morning and Elder Scott spoke on prayer. 

The details of my trial don't matter.  What matters is the following:

1) The Lord knows me so well that one of the ways He manifests His love is by sending little events in preparation for what is looming.  Sometimes they are subtle, but sometimes, like now, they are huge and hard to miss. I am grateful for my knowledge and testimony of this Gospel so I could recognize the preparation and warning that was given to me, and hopefully be that much more ready to deal with the fallout.

2) The Lord has blessed me with a tremendous support system in the way of a loving family and compassionate friends.  They bear me up when I am weak. 

3) The Lord sends tender mercies to help me cope.  One of those tender mercies came this week in the form of  2 songs that played on the radio as I drove to work one morning this week:

 by Christina Perri

'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
 . . . .

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

It may sound stupid now, but that song was what I needed to hear, when I needed to hear it.  It reminded me that because I am only human, I need to rely on and put my faith in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. 

"I'm Already There"
by Lonestar

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

And this song was to remind me that He is always with me, His love surrounds me.

So while I work my way through this current course of events, I am praying.  A lot.  And I am learning some important lessons along the way.  Lessons about pride.  And about love.  And about patience.  And most definitely about faith.  I guess those are all things I need to do some serious work on.

In the meantime, I'll just take it one day at a time, and hope that each day will be a little better than the one before.